project tomato

i’m falling

it’s so bright and beautiful

so magical

how can this hurt..

it can’t.. can it?

falling so fast

i’m helpless

i want it to stop, kind of..

when i hit the ground

will the explosion of hurt

make me a better person?

or will it destroy me completely..

it feels so pretty

i can’t want it to stop

i don’t really

i feel weightless, like a feather

falling with force

into the hope of you

staring through the light she sees what she wants

what she hopes is real

if it could ever be found

she reaches to touch it

to feel it in her fingers, in her mind and soul

yet a breath away and it’s gone

like yesterdays thoughts

she waits for it to come to her

with a blinded look she searches

maybe when it comes it will make sense

or maybe that’s a dream of better days

are the thoughts mere lies to herself?
 

gasping out loud she stops

the light has gone

her fingers tremble of thoughts

she closes her eyes in hope

waiting for the light she imagines it true

wishing for it not to be

a broken heart and a mind of scars

take her to the end and back

and with her cold fingers she finds the piece

that brings it all back through to her body and mind
 

once again she cries

for the love and blood lost

and as the surface comes clearer

she finds the moment to breathe again

one, two..

Time and time again you play the card

The card that is tired and worn

Broken, almost

I could rip that card to shreds

I should

But I let you go as you need it

The feel of it for you

The comfort

Yet you think you know my card

And that is has no significance

No compete for you

Tho the wounded soldier cries alone

They feel the need to drain others

To pull the life back into their own

I see it happening in a vicious cycle

It’s easier to sit back and watch

Then throw myself into it all

I will sit and wait

And see if you notice

That I gave the game up a long time ago

That I can’t compete with selfishness

And that I’m letting you win the invisible struggle

I fear you will not ever realise what’s happened

And your mind will never overcome it all

I can only hope for the strength

The passion and the love

To eventually breakthrough and win

Once and for all